Decisions

[jack]

we ought to do a tele health session. I'm supposed to do 50 free coaching hours after graduation to get my license.

 

[Mirah]

Does it involve a bannana?

 

[Mirah]

we ought to do a tele health session. I'm supposed to do 50 free coaching hours after graduation to get my license.

I appreciate that. I really do.

 

[Mirah]

My decision is becoming clearer now.

I have sent in my negotiation letter even knowing I may still decline.

I feel more solid now.

 

[jack]

Does it involve a bannana?

It could...how would that make you feel?

 

[Mirah]

Every time I think I am close to a decision and a roadblock comes up

Where are they coming from?

What do I really really want to do? Why? Does it matter why? Why don't I want to do it? and to me it doesn't matter why. I don't need a reason why not, but I need a reason why.

 

[Mirah]

I will pack my stuff up,
I will move away
into the mountains again
I will have visitors
they will travel long distance to get there
I will wait weeks for my groceries
what will I eat? what will I make? Do I have a freezer big enough for everything i need?
What if the power goes out?
Is there a lantern?
What if there is a bear at my door?

 

[Mirah]

And what about the work? the work is less than desirable
what do I do on my days off?
sit by the river?
draw?
write?
take photos?
I mean yeah, that sounds amazing

 

[Mirah]

How can one be lonely? THey are lonely in a crowded place, they are lonely in town, they are lonely watching the families go by

 

[jack]

I'm never lonely. Way too busy with people in real life.

 

[Mirah]

I am going forward
on this path
but I am still not certain
it
is
pretty crazy

 

[Mirah]

What will bring me the most peace?

The thing that is the most boring unfortunately.

The one that seemilngly has no adventure.

The safe route.

Hmmm I wonder why I wrote that.