I grew up in a small rural town where me and my family were seen as outsiders because we had moved there from the city(New York) when I was three years old. Spent most of childhood and young adult years as the target and prey of bullies and mean spirited classmates. As a middle child I was often ignored by parents and picked on by my older and younger brothers as well. This left me starved for attention which translated into acting out such as when I wrote homoerotic Spanish dialogue about two guys eating each other's balls. Earned a day of in-school suspension for that. These themes carried over into my adult life leaving me socially retarded, shy, insecure, sexually confused(definitely straight though), and lacking in self-esteem and confidence.
